Thursday 24 December 2015

POEMS Page 6


Breaking Bread
Standing on platforms 
made soft by repeated 
stand of orators 
spew the man, words 
he himself 
could not understand 

such twisted words 
honed by years of mumbling 
repetition of vowels 
without tune 
or melody 
he thought himself smart 

preaching to his congregation 
the whys of wheres 
and the what of when 
and just how was how... 
discordant words 
strange even to himself 

he broke bread, lifting it up 
looking up at empty ceilings 
wrought with iron 
and silent still angels 
he consecrated His body 
with faded faith 

he thought he could reach 
for the stars again 
but his knees couldn't bent 
his arms he couldn't lift 
his shadow was long 
winter crept near 

"your mind will not sparkle 
forever more 
death draws near 
do not fear,' 
Scytheman whispered. 

Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 15th January 2014 10:50pm


Breathlessly
sometimes calling your name 
leaves me breathless 
couldn't wrap my lips around it 
or my throat to birth it 
suddenly my mouth turns dusty dry 

Sometimes I smile alone 
spelling your name on my screen 
or just wander around 
thinking up colour schemes 
for a dream 

Sometimes you make me feel like screaming 
I want to burst into a butterfly 
to show you Im not all drab 
I want to be a dancing poppy flower 
or a rainbow in hundreds of prisms 

Sometimes I feel like running away 
or sit in a corner and vegetate 
so strange emotions don't tear me 
apart and turn me into tiny confetti 
to be strewn on some dirt road 

Sometimes I think about love 
and I shudder in fear 
of the tribulations on that road 
for I have travelled there before 
pricked by thorns smelling the roses. 
Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 24th October 2014 11:35pm 

Brief Encounters; Angels and Demons
Snow gone and springtime blooms 
Scents of lavender in the air 
Blue sky above, gentle wind blows 
perfect for lovers first kiss 

among the beauty a furious demon 
slump without pride a ghastly form 
lost a battle with a shiny angel 
flushed by the seraphim’s sword 

there he lies in human form 
cuts and bruises on his frame 
shivers he in mortal pain 
his voice an anguished groaning 

peep a beauteous woman at him 
from among the blooming shrubs 
hold out her hands and grasps 
his, pulling him up to his feet 

wordless they walk towards the forest 
where shades by leaves hid them 
she sits him by a stream 
and began to wash his wounds 

‘I smell you, you are of God’s 
Why do you help me 
I am of he, casted down 
For defying the father’ 

‘I know naught but compassion 
With your weakened human form 
I do not do for you alone 
But those who need me’ 

They sat together through the noon 
Speaking of angels and demons 
Why they have fought for eternity 
And still haven’t reach amicability 

It is dark in heaven, when they stop; 
they speak no more for tales 
Have all been told, exhausted 
They sit together waiting for answers 

Their hands entwined, angel and demon 
Looking no more than the average beauty 
of humans in their everyday garb 
the spirits shine and coalesced 

the sparks flew around like fireflies 
within the forested expanse 
the two figures are no more 
gone to their places, below and above 

Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 3rd March 2014 10:18am 

Briefly Shift the Curtain
Coming to my senses I this man a father a brother a son 
most of all a governor of this distant province 
needing to know what to do, to see to feel 
should I in intricate words, pompous oratory 
let my people know the truth they thought they knew 

for to see the distortions in all that I believed in 
that I should align myself to this other clan 
oh knaves they were or so I thought 
so benign, bowing to my words, I who thunders 
when I so wish, O that I could thunder now 

yet our youth are growing less in our settlements 
they follow the new warriors, leaders to conquer 
other territories for their gain, o’ imprudent me 
though glory thoughts do  tug my very soul 
should my people be mere food growers and foragers 

they promise glory of conquer of blood and kills 
such that excite youth yet they forget their duties 
to protect their own, their land their settlement 
conquer them in the fields yet leave us vulnerable 
my people know the alliance sacrifice their sons 

they look to me for solution to curtail the slaughter 
of their innocents in fields fuelled by tales of glory   
farm boys chanting slogans they don’t understand 
to evoke fear from their enemies, who though laugh 
at the puny youngsters walking akimbo in death fields 

I do have a sense of self, of pride and self-worth 
I stand this day upon my words and tell the lords 
of war and plunder that I will contribute no more 
I will die I fear and others will continue 
But I swear I will say to them ‘no more’ 

the distant province is no more, M’Lord 
there was carnage, but there is no more rebels 
all will hearken unto your words 
as King of the land, for the Governor is no more 
his head on a stake at the village square. 


*this poem was entered in a competition here. Thank you for reading.*
Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 27th November 2014 7:42pm

Bring Me Home
The sun was about to set, its brilliant dying rays shone through the canopy of leaves above me. The trees around me started their restless rustlings. I wondered why it made that noise, especially when dusk approached. The constant noise sounded eerily like whisperings and sighing of entities unseen. The night descended and I was still on that beaten track walking home. Home was a couple of kilometres away from the bus stop where the big bellied bus spat me out. 
I turned my thoughts away from nature’s norm and about my trip home. I have not been back for the last five years. I wondered how everything was. I had left in a huff those many years ago, due to some family quarrel that seemed so petty now.  I recalled that it was about our father’s land where my sister and her husband wanted to sell and I wanted to keep. My mother was for my sister and that irked me as it seemed to slander our father’s memory. 
We ended up in court and it was decided that we divided it instead. I still have the land, yet I never went to look at it. My sister sold her share and had since left to live in the city. 
I was going home though, as my mother was gravely ill and her second husband had called me and told me that she wanted to see me. I felt guilty for not being there for her those many years, but then again her husband Michael loved her so much, and  always took good care of her.  They have been married for almost 20 years, five years after my father died. I was about ten at that time when Mother remarried, so Michael was more real to me than my own father, whom I mostly remembered through photographs. 
My thoughts jolted back when I felt somebody walking behind me. I turned back to look and saw a young man, maybe in his late teens walking behind me. 
He had this lovely smile and when I said Hi, he answered with a hi too, his eyes sparkling with inner joy. I asked him where he was going to and he said he was going to fetch his mother and bring her back to his home. I said hey, that’s a coincident I am going home to see my mother. 
He said hey imagine that, and I nodded. He started talking about his mother and father, how they loved each other. He talked about how his father would kiss his mother’s hand and bring her wild flowers from the woods. How he would chance upon them kissing under the apple tree, or chasing each other around the pond, trying to push the other in. 
I listened mostly, holding my jacket closer and hitching my heavy rucksack on my back. The night seemed to grow colder and I shivered a little. 
On a crossroad, or actually a cross junction of the jungle path, the young man went to the left turning, waving. I called out, hey I don’t know your name…and he said ‘Steven…’ and I said I am Shirley and he answered ‘I know…’ I stood there puzzled for a while, and then I realised my rucksack had an identification tag with my name on it. 
The nocturnal sounds of the woods receded as I walked into the space my parents called a farm. It was actually just a pretty little valley with their house on it, a barn on one end where no livestock lived, a field of corn and huge tracks of woods. It was accessible by transportation actually, just that I took the bus. I needed the walk. 
Michael was at the veranda to greet me. He wrapped me in his huge arms and once again I remembered loving this man like a father when I was a child. His huge frame was a comfort. He whispered welcome home and ushered me into the house. I went right to their bedroom to look at my mother. What I saw killed me. She looked like a small child on the bed, her long glossy hair spread out; which showed that what little of it was brushed well. 
Michael was weeping silently as I sobbed into my hands. How can I have left and never came back to see this woman who gave me life, I thought. I remembered how this petite woman loved us. I remembered her sorrow when she miscarried her baby with Michael after carrying it for three months. I remembered how Michael held her and loved her through her sorrow. 
My mother stirred and Michael came and held her hands. Shirley is here, he said and Mom opened her eyes and looked at me. For a moment there she did not look sick, she had brilliant eyes that seemed to sparkle with inner joy. She smiled at me brilliantly, oh you are so beautiful, such a fine young woman, my baby, she said softly. She turned her eyes to Michael who was silently weeping, his face flooding. She said thank you for my life with you My darling. I will be alright, Steven is coming for me. Michael gasped out his sobs so hard that it sounded painful. My mother then looked away and her breath rattled in her throat. Steven…she breathed out and never breath in again. 
I looked at Michael and he nodded, still crying.…gasped out Our unborn child, Steven…memorial stone under the Apple Tree. 
Dumbfounded I looked towards the window, and for a brief moment I thought I saw silhouettes of two people walking away hand in hand. 

Ends 

This story is inspired by two of my poems:
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/58657-wanderings/ 
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/113193-good-night-children/ 
Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 3rd October 2013 10:08am
- Last modified 3rd October 2013 10:45am

Broken
Crumpled on the grass 
on spreading magenta 
Looking up at the stars 
wishing someone can hear 
her soft whispers 
for caring hands 

Tears falling from her eyes 
As the stars seems to glow 
Brighter by the hour 
but nearer is darkness 
the scythed persona 
he draws near 

Darkness on darkness 
she falls 
as the reaper reaps 
morning sees 
the raped, crumpled 
like yesterday's newspaper

Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 4th November 2011 5:55am 

Broken Gold Circle
The wall echoes with emptiness 
The clock slowly ticks 
Agonising weariness 
Eyes gummed together 
with needed sleep 
In the distance a door slams 
A lone dog barks 
Its all over 
Again 
You left 
To go to her 
Will you sign the divorce papers? 
The wind blows through the open window 
The papers scatter on the floor 
Blue ink drying

Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 19th August 2012 2:22pm 

Broken Heart
Face down screaming words no one hear 
mouthing names alien to other ears 
sobbing tears that seep into the sheets 
broken by death stamped on by destiny 

damning his soul to the pits of hell 
as he curses the gods he once revered 
drunks are results of his creation 
and He visited them on his beloved 

he will no longer know rest 
nor will he know loving smiles 
and gentle loving at midnight 
he wishes he can cut his throat 

He knows he will always seek the scents 
of the mother of his children 
who held them both as the car 
crashes into the swerving truck 

He will always listen for their laughter, 
his beautiful twin pair 
it will be a long haul to where 
they are, but he will journey on 

His tears seep into the white sheet 
as his broken heart bleeds on 
God is merciful to him after all 
and he enters the blazing portal.

Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 27th October 2014 11:03pm

Broken Strings
its was way before 
hopelessness reigned then 
a sighing resignation 
never diving in 
the pool of hope 
more  dangling on invisible threads 

then the whispers of promises came 
giving good tidings 
o but there must be a sunray 
from the darkness of the tunnel 
running to grab the offering 

what was there on offer then 
simple really, in recollection 
just to be alive and smelling the coffee 
smiling at silly jokes 
the companionship 

the music was played 
individual orchestra from pulsing hearts 
then the guitar string broke 
slashing into hopeful retinas 
the songs of hope went silent 

an old song repeated 
an old path well trodden 
there would be stairs in the end 
but the room at the top of the stairs 
might not echo the beating heart.

Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 8th November 2015 11:27pm 

Broken*
 on her knees on the kitchen floor 
picking up the broken shards 
of glass and ceramics 
reminded her of the rice 
on the church floor 

her fingers cut and bleeding 
blood sacrifice on her wedding ring 
made her think of the vow 
at the pristine altar of God 
did she say 'I do' 

ten years of bending 
picking up after him 
the house master, husband 
slave driver and jailkeeper 
did she die and went to hell 

she left before he woke 
riding the greyhound 
invigorating chilly air 
a hundred miles away 
she felt the warm sun 
on her shoulders. 


*this poem was entered in a competition here. thank you for reading*
Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 22nd July 2015 9:17pm 

Bruised and Lacerated
drowning his heart 
with liquid magenta 
thorns on his ribs 
lacerations on his torso 

he didn't care, or noticed 
for white pain held him 
the festering wound unhealed 
dripped slow death into his soul 

slowly and surely 
his bruises putrefied 
as he grasped the thorny vines 
dripping blood, savouring the agony 

he couldn't leave 
not yet, not until 
he died wrapped in grief 
bruised and lacerated 

planted in the ground 
where love could not reach 
hate could not touch 
remembered for a while 

dead rose petals would adorn 
the grassy mound for a while 
until he arise to life 
or to the trumpets in glory.

Written by Grace (Idryad)
Published 1st January 2015 9:20pm

 


















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